how do i know?

Hello, Lord.

Here I am.

I can't sleep.  My heart is restless, Lord.  Filled with many emotions; stirring.

I know you are here, Lord; but how do I know?  Is it because I read many books about you?  Is it because I read your words, in your Scriptures?  No - I just know, Lord.

I hear you; I feel you inwardly, in my soul.  It isn't always pleasant.  Sometimes it is painful.  I know you are asking me to change things in my life, and to give up things.  And I often tel you: "I'm not ready, Lord.  I don't want to listen to you right now.  I'm not ready to change things, or to give things up.  Not right now, Lord."

Still, I know you are there.  Still: I hear you.